Thoughts in my head...

I want to take a nice long HOT bubbly bath. You know... the kind with candles and a good book... Relaxation at its best. Do I have time for this? No. If I did have time for it would I? Not at my house.. my bathtub scares me. LOL! I want to get a nice plush hotel room with a huge garden tub and just live in the tub for a day. *nods* I'd also like a day at a spa... massages, facials - all that pampering shit. Yes... I want someone to smear warm mud or whatever they use all over me, wrap me in huge fluffy towels and treat me like a queen. I've NEVER spoiled myself with anything like that before... It would be nice. It's nice to dream about stuff you can't afford, isn't it!? lol You would think that I would have done this at least once in all these years but no. I tend to take care of everyone around me before I ever even entertain the thought of doing something for me and usually by the time that happens I don't have the means to do it. *shrug* I like it when the people around me are happy but I think I deserve a little bit of that once in a while. Don't get me wrong. I like doing stuff for others. It actually does make me a happier person to help others through their shit. I am not going to change that... I'm just saying... if I win the lottery...? I'm *SO* going to blow a bunch of cash on something like that.